End - Beginning

HELLO! 

So, it has been well over a month since I have posted anything...and well I can't say I'm not surprised with myself! I'm going to be upfront and honest - I've just been having way too much fun this month. I have made so many memories and I really have neglected writing or posting about anything I've done. (sorry)

Most of the time, I haven't been at home or I am somewhere with no Internet connection and I've also had no time at all, to get all the photographs from this summer, uploaded and edited, which all in all takes such a long time! :'(

But it is coming to the last week of summer holidays and there is really nothing to be doing now - bar trying to get everything organised for going back to school and getting your sleeping pattern in check! haha

This summer is coming to an end and I feel really really sad, as this year is the year when all my friends head off to University and different countries and beginning a new adventure, a new chapter in their lives. I am so happy for all of my wonderful friends! I am so proud of them and although I am sad, that yes, maybe I won't see them everyday at school, maybe I'll only see them the occasional weekend or maybe every main holiday - Christmas, Easter - that sort of thing. But I'm also so excited for them, and waiting to hear all the craic and banter from their experiences in Uni is definitely going to be a treat for me! Maybe they will have some advice for me when it is my turn.

^-^

As the summer comes to an end - a new school year begins, I am really determined this year to do well, after having a second chance and somewhat proving to myself I am capable of doing well, I have this slight excited feeling about what I could possibly achieve this time round. Self Achievement is probably one of the best feelings a person could feel! And well, now that summer has ended, and a new season is starting (in life) I am actually writing this blog-post on things I would like to see change in my life.

Although I have been having a great time, being careless of everything, I really do want to get back on track with things - and I thought I'd share what I hope will happen in the next year.

-GET ORGANISED-

I really want to be super organised this year, I have a lot to worry about and I don't want to screw things up. I have a lot of responsibilities and I want to do a good job!

-WORK HARD-

I know I'm not the smartest person on this earth, I know I'm not the most motivated, I know me better than anyone - I know I am extremely lazy, and I don't usually have a positive ''hard-working'' attitude. This is why, I HAVE to work hard this year, there is no more chances, no more room for making mistakes and taking things for granted. While I write this I know deep down, I'm actually not that motivated, I know that I won't take classes seriously, or do homework or keep on top of things. But I do know, without a shadow of a doubt - 

I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT WANT TO FAIL.

And if working hard all year and trying my best to discipline myself ALL YEAR just for that satisfaction at the end of the road, then that makes everything worthwhile. 

-MOTIVATION-

This is where I lack the most, I really really REALLY, have no motivation...at all....period.
And to this day I don't know where to find it, can I buy it? Can I smother myself in things I love to help ''motivate'' me?

 There really is no hope for me in this department! :/ 

I cannot think of anything which will ignite THE FLAMMMEEEEE OF MOTIVATIONNNN! Bahaha! ^-^

I usually pray to God to help me find motivation, but I can't feel a drive for me trying harder or doing better. After all I've stated above, I can still 100% X infinity that I still feel no motivation at all.
This is something I hope will just happen over time and I will actually feel like I WANT to do things, not I HAVE to do things -which, in my opinion can really destroy any sliver of hope in doing things well.

I guess I could say in wanting to not fail, I have a little bit of motivation - I mean I did type all of the above in confidence that I mean them. But does that mean I also have motivation to do all those things?
*Sigh
I just don't know to be honest! I can't really tell.
In conclusion to this massive ramble - I still need way more motivation than I (may) have now. 

-SELF BELIEF-

Now, this is something that really eats me up, because I don't have any self-belief.
I expect failure, I guess, I have this mindset that everything will be okay in the end, but all I ever do is just expect myself to fail - or in other words, do badly.
And yet again, this comes back to my carefree ''I don't give a f*ck'' attitude. But yes. I will have to work on that too.

-GETTING TO IT-

After all of that said, starting and actually continuing more than 2 days will be the biggest challenge yet.!!

I don't think I will make update posts about this any time soon, but I do expect myself to post about maybe some of the things that have happened. Posting whether or not this all fell through is something I may consider keeping off the blog, as some of my 'few' readers probably don't want to hear about all this.

So getting back to more photos and happy posts that goes on in my life, I Thank You all, for taking the time to read this!
I really appreciate everything! 

Much love

Fil

<3

 

p.s. I will be posting more photos from summer and apologies for the late uploads!

Graduation Day.

HI EVERYONE!

Today has been wonderful.! Although I wasn't able to attend the actual ceremony for my sisters graduation, thankfully it was streaming live online - so I didn't miss much! 

I got some screen shots of Ro (my sister) receiving her wee fake certificate and we all cheered, hahaha.

Although nothing really happened, I do have some 'lovely' photographs, so...shall we begin?

^-^

^ How funny is Adam (little brother) in this picture! haha ^

 This is a picture of the family. Best photo taken of today!

Sorry for The very short post, but I'm off to go eat the GRADUATION DINNER! NOMNOMNOM!

See you all soon
<3

Fil

Come fly with me, let's fly, let's fly away...

HI GUYS.!


So... as of right now, it is just past midnight and well - I guess you could say I'm too excited to sleep. hehehe. ^-^


I really should be in my bed, attempting to have a snooze, but later on this morning, I shall be jetting off for my sisters Graduation! YAY! I'm super duper happy for her! I still remember the day she left to start her new adventure in University - which is complete madness, since now, she's graduating. Time really flies huh?

But in the awesomeness of it all, of course it has been havoc preparing for her special day. I on one hand am becoming stressed about everything - as I tend to be the one left to sort everything out -booking the hotels, printing the boarding passes for the flight etc. :P
But I don't worry too much about those things as I trust myself to be a Pro at making life easy for myself.! HAHAHA!

As I type, my suitcase is in the corner of my eye, sitting there....staring at me - OKAY, I admit it. I haven't even finished packing yet and I'm sitting here writing a blogpost.!

"Sorry I'm not sorry"


Bahaha, my friend Emily taught me that phrase. It's great to use! Haven't stopped since I heard her say it first.
:D


Are any of you bad packers? I know I am - and I seem I can never learn from experience and I just know that I will open my suitcase when I arrive and I will have forgotten something or packed things that there was no need to pack at all!
*sigh - I really am useless at it!


But I have also written 2 lists of things I need to pack and do before we leave the house.
My: 

''Don't forget to pack these'' list 

and

''To do'' list

Am I sad or what? bahahaha!
I worry for myself!


But I cannot bare to bore you anymore - since there's alot to do today, I may not get the chance to post again, but who knows!

I shall definitely post again tomorrow, look out for ''Graduation Day''.
I do wonder if there will be any good stories to tell? 


Do you have any good stories from your own or a family members Graduation day? I'd love to read some in the comments!

MUCH LOVE
<3
Fil


P.S. How am I doing with this new blog? I'm enjoying writing alot more than usual! Look forward to more photos and picture in Blogposts to come! ^-^

A Fresh Start

HELLO!

So yes, as a result of terrible luck - my previous Blog, well, died today.

But I am not so sad about it - as I hope this new Blog of mine, will do me some justice.
I am quite sad, that the effort I had put into my last Blog went down the drain, but I won't mention another word about it. It was a good time, filled with lots of memories I thought I'd share with my 'anon' readers, which hit an all time high of 2 readers! YAY!

It shall be greatly missed but I'm sure I will just re-create my old Blog again. Maybe posting a little bit more than I used to! hehe. 

So now, hopefully, everything will be well and Blogspot will not crash like it has already.!

Thank you for stopping by and I will post as often as I can.
:)

Bye for now! 

<3
Fil